Surrender, the Book of Job, and William Blake

Today is the 260th birthday of William Blake, and on this special occasion, I wrote another reflection inspired by his illustrations of the book of Job. It is about the lessons on surrender.

When the Morning Stars Sang Together Butts set.jpg
By William BlakeThe Morgan Library, extracted from Zoomify by User:GGreer, Public Domain, Link

Surrender is one of the fundamental concepts of the meditative practice, and at the same time it is one of the most difficult concepts to understand, to accept and to enact in life. We often struggle with it, or even against it, again and again it puts us to test, and sometimes we pass it, while other times we fail. Surrender has to do with giving up something of our own and instead accepting the conditions of someone else. When we talk of meditation, or of spirituality, we often say that we need to surrender, and that calls for two questions. The first one: what it is that we need to surrender? The second one: when we surrendered, then to whom or to what?

The meditation I practice is about growth. It is about developing your capacities, about trying to become the best of what you can possibly be individually, and, as much as possible, improving your community and your society. In the process, we often develop a subtle ego, a feeling of moral or spiritual superiority, a false arrogance in believing that we know best how things should be done and what is the right thing to do, what is just and who deserves what. The first of our questions then would be relatively easy to answer (though not very easy to enact): we need to surrender, often, and repeatedly, all kinds of false ideas, false identities, false presumptions and habits, we have to try to gradually shed everything that prevents us from eventually manifesting our truest and purest Self and fully identifying with that Self.

Now, let’s talk about the Book of Job. It is one of the most puzzling stories from the Old Testament, perhaps because it is about surrender, perhaps also because it challenges one of the allies of our subtle ego, – a sort of retributive justice we often use to explain misfortunes (usually the ones that happen to others). It is a belief that suffering must always be the punishment for sin (and that whoever suffers must deserve it), and, correspondingly, that health, wealth, and happiness must always reward “goodness” and “righteousness”.

I’ve been inspired to ponder about the story of Job and to write this post (asecond one already), because a while ago I came across amazing illustrations by William Blake. He made two sets of watercolours and one set of engraved prints. Luckily for us, they are nicely collected and available in the public domain here [], and so I invite you to explore these illustrations also while you are reading the post. It means a lot, that of all the themes of the Old Testament, Blake worked so much on the story of Job.

So, here is the story of Job. Job is a righteous man, well-respected, just and pious. God has a discussion with Satan about Job’s devotion to God, and Satan claims that Job is only pious because he is doing well, he has everything one might want in life, but were he to be deprived of his wellbeing, he would not remain faithful to God. God accepts the challenge and allows Satan to take away everything that Job has: his wealth, his children, and eventually his health, to see that Job will remain pious even when the blessings he is enjoying are stripped away from him. At first Job stays strong, but eventually, as things get worse and worse, and also as Job’s friends begin to say that Job must have committed some sins, to be so badly punished by God, Job loses his calm. He insists that he has not done anything wrong, he doesn’t know why God is punishing him, and eventually he feels that to die would be better than to suffer so miserably. It seems, justice is a huge issue for Job, he feels that his suffering is not just, and so he calls on God in despair. This is why the book of Job is so interesting, so challenging and so philosophical at the same time. It contrasts our human sense of justice with the divine justice, our human character with divine qualities, our limited human capacities with the infinite nature of God.

The Lord Answering Job Out of the Whirlwind Butts set.jpg
By William BlakeThe Morgan Library, extracted from Zoomify by User:GGreer, Public Domain, Link

Then something happens. The Lord answers Job from the whirlwind. The response of God is very interesting, for in beautiful details it tells Job that while Job knows very little it is the God who is present and is working though all aspects of nature, all elements, the whole creation. It doesn’t directly respond to Job’s plea, but it brings his existence into perspective. Job recognizes his own caliber, and then God restores him back into his wellbeing, gives him back his wealth and family, his respected position, but, most of all, his solid faith in God.

Now, what are the lessons to learn from the Book of Job with regard to a meditateve practice?

I remember, one of the things I still had in my teenage years, was the feeling of closeness with God, the feeling of God’s presence, the sense that I could talk to God. It was not just the belief that God existed, but also the feeling of trust that God takes care of things, and everything will eventually work out. As I was growing up, I lost this feeling, became close to being an agnostic, and that has dramatically changed the emotional quality of my life. One of the first things I rediscovered once I settled into the practice of meditation, was that sense of emotional security, the feeling that things are happening the way they supposed to happen, and everything will be alright in the end. It isn’t just a belief, rather, it is a tangible feeling of the flow of energy that is healing, calming and comforting.

Something that occurred to me recently, also with the help of the story of Job, that to be able to “surrender”, we have to have at least some sense of who or what it is that we are surrendering to. We need to have and to sustain the experience of some Power that “runs” the universe, in all those beautifully detailed aspects that we read about in God’s response to Job. We need to trust that Power, whether we call it Divine, or Nature, or Universe, that it cares and takes care of everything, including us. This experience of the established connection with the Energy of the Universe is what ultimately sustains us through the challenges that life might bring, and it is the condition of us remaining balanced within and stable, even when the outside conditions are turbulent. It is not enough to rationalize and to understand, it has to be experienced, and the experience has to be established, as Job says (quoted by Blake): “I have heard thee with the hearing of the Ear but now my Eye seeth thee”. It was not enough to “hear” God for Job to maintain his sense of what God was, he had to actually “see” God, and that has restored his connection which he was losing when challenged with suffering. This is why we keep insisting in our meditation classes, that no matter how much you read, and how much you know, you will only progress on this path through daily practice of meditation, for that is the only way to have an actual real experience of  being connected to the Energy, and to establish that experience within you.

The Vision of Christ Butts set.jpg
By William BlakeThe Morgan Library, extracted from Zoomify by User:GGreer, Public Domain, Link

Something that often came up in the old Christian and anti-Christian arguments about the existence and nature of God with regard to the problem of evil, was the whole sense of bafflement, that Job also experiences, that how can the benevolent and powerful God allow for the “suffering of the innocent” in the world? A way to approach the issue from a slightly different angle in this: in the story of Job, who actually has the need for that drama of loss and suffering to take place? Does God need to test Job through suffering? Obviously, not. When God appears to Job and responds to him, Job’s suffering is never addressed, neither is the notion of justice, that is not what is at stake here. It is Job himself, who needs to go through this experience, firstly to be able to see where he is at, and how strong is his state, how pure and how true is his understanding of himself, how adequate is his understanding of and trust in God. Secondly, through this experience Job can learn, he can grow a little further, he can shed that (already very thin, after all he is a good and pious man) layer of subtle ego and self-righteousness, which, when tested with loss, pain and nightmares, makes him think, that he is the one who knows what is just, that he can make a judgement, and he is right to be disturbed when that judgement is clashing with reality, thus bringing God into question.

So perhaps we can try out this approach. When things are not going according to our plan and our preference, we can take on a challenge and use the unpleasant (disturbing or even painful) situation to test ourselves, our state, our attitudes, our reactions, unlimitedly, the level of out surrender. We don’t need to go through suffering as horrible and painful as that of Job, regular small or bigger challenges of our lives will do.

Intentionality of perception: noesis and noema again…

The other day, I was writing some transitions between the sections of the dissertation – those intros, conclusions and summaries (or signposts) that Sam told me are needed every 3-5(!!!) pages. Well, I’m not putting them in that frequently, that would drive me totally nuts, so I’ll wait and see how readable is this monster to my actually current first reader :). But here’s a little piece of theory that made it’s way into one of those summaries.

This section has taken us directly into the light, and has given us, hopefully, a good glimpse of what the light feels like. While trying to stay within the atmosphere of this white light, let us now retrace a bit from these somewhat ephemeral descriptions of feelings, moods and attitudes, from the noetic descriptions of how the white makes us feel, and spend some time in the noematic aspect, looking at how it has been painted, and what in the painting contributes to this particular atmosphere and feeling. In the next section we will start with talking about the white light, the place is it coming from and how it has been painted. This will inevitably keep bringing us back into the noetic descriptions of sense perception (mainly vision) as well as other faculties. Phenomenology in the end is about the chiasm of the seer and the seen through the seeing, of the one who touches and who is touched through the touching, and it is one of the most inspiring and insightful aspects of a bodily phenomenology of Merleau-Ponty’s style, to ponder about and try to understand what it meant that there is no subject-object divide, what it means that we actually see and touch the things themselves, that we see them with our eyes and touch them with our hands, and not have some abstract impressions of abstract qualities somewhere in our brain or mind, of something that might or might not actually exist somewhere out there, and might or might not actually be the way it appears to us. This is why, while describing noetmatically, what it is that we see, we will keep shifting to how we see it, and how it requires us to see it, and back again, to what it is we see and how it looks. The next section will provide the core insights about attuning to the white in spheres other than emotional, temporal and partially social that have been already introduced in this section.

Good point but poorly communicated

Витягла з папки десятирічної давності ессе – про ту картину, про яку зараз дописую останню частину великого шматка дисера. Ось вона:


Витягла його з метою подивитися, чи там щось є, що би можна було зараз використати як spring-board і таким чином пришвидшити занурення в процес активного писання. І таки є, як не дивно, – це перше ессе для Сема, за яке я отримала від нього A (він зняв був пів бала і вийшло А-, бо воно було на тиждень запізнене, але по суті це було таки А). Якраз в той сам час воно було написане, що й рекомендація з попереднього поста – вже не пригадую, чи рекомендацію він написав до того як це ессе прочитав, чи після.

Так от, є там такий загадковий для мене Семів коментар на полях: “Good point but poorly communicated”, стосується він цього ось абзацу:

The sky takes hold of what’s departing (into death?), covers it up and shields – us from it, it from us. The sky prepares the future – that future is held in the spot of promise without being revealed yet. (It also shields us from the blackness of the mystery – covering from us that black grain of being(?) itself, that appears through the crack in the sky.) This is how it helps us, mortals, – by covering up, shielding us from our own past, leading us through time, through seasons, so that we could move on, and also, calling us into the future – that bright spot of promise on the horizon. If we do not move on – from all that has died long ago, we will be stuck with all our phantom limbs. In a way, that seasonality of the sky gives us a pace, a rhythm of moving though and beyond, and not being stuck. And yet without rushing us ahead, so that we do not run around (and away) into our work and our daily life when it’s time for us to rest and stay, and, actually to take care, sort out, and so to be able to leave behind our past.

Я тоді ще була не така нахабна дівчинка, як пізніше стала, ще не влаштовувала зустрічі для розбору польотів (чи може тоді ще просто Сем не пропонував мені такі зустрічі), і тому Семові коменти розбирала самотужки, часто ще з одним знайомим, який був в категорії Семового студента багато років, і часом міг мені краще пояснити, що саме Сем мав на увазі. Втім, невдовзі цей контакт теж обірвався (я про це писала недавно в пості про Модільяні – от як все чомусь нагадує зараз про рік 2005), і я залишилася сам на сам і Семовими коментами :).

Ото я досі не можу зрозуміти, що саме він мав на увазі – що саме було там в тому параграфі good point, і чому poorly communicated. Хоч, мушу признатися, що я цю фразу взяла на озброєння (мабуть несвідомо), трохи пом’якшила, і теж використовувала в коментах до ессе своїх студентів. 🙂 Академічна спадковість – велика сила…

Helping Hands on the Medieval Page

Awesome post as always


We are taught not to point. Pointing with your finger is rude, even though it is often extremely convenient and efficient. Medieval readers do not seem to have been hindered by this convention: in the margins of books before print one frequently encounters a manicula or “little hand”. While the purpose of these “helping hands” was the same (they were usually put there to highlight an important passage), their appearance varies considerably. This is due to the fact that there was no standard format for the hand – beyond the point that it had to resemble one (Fig. 1).

Leiden, Universiteitsbibliotheek, VLQ MS 99 (13th century) Fig. 1 – Leiden, Universiteitsbibliotheek, VLQ MS 99 (13th century) – Photo EK

Since the reader was able to shape hand and finger as he or she saw fit, we can sometimes recognise a particular reader within a single manuscript, or even within the books of a library. The charming hands function as a kind of fingerprint of a particular reader, allowing…

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насправді це так фігово, коли лайк – це єдина можливість відповісти на вірш, а там, в ньому – смерть. хай краще без лайку перепост…

оксана максимчук

Любі мертві
залишаються у зимі.
в глинянім карфагені,
в креогеннім сні.

Нам співають кулі.
Нас зігріває лед.
Сійся, смерте,
в наш шкіряний намет,
під епідерміс льолі.

Люлі люлі, милі мої.
Повипадали гулі
з маминого гнізда.
Зметені із лиця землі,
залишаймося у зимі.

В серці муляє:
Втримати не змогла.
Бережися, любий.
Розчленований на два,
Слава твоя єдина.

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Mary Had a Little Book


For the book historian Christmas is a great season. It means that a lot of so-called “Annunciation” scenes make their rounds on social media, the biblical story in which the angel Gabriel announces to Mary that she will give birth to God’s son, Christ. There is something very attractive about these scenes for lovers of medieval books. Especially in the later Middle Ages, Mary is shown to be reading when Gabriel breaks the news. The idea was to show her in a holy place engaged in prayer, studies explain (here and here), and to make this connection to the beholder, she was shown with a book.

While this alone tells you a lot about the role of the book in medieval times, the Annunciation scenes have an even more interesting story to tell. They invited medieval decorators to depict a book and a reader engaged with it, life-like and to the best of their abilities. This implies that…

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Medieval Spam: The Oldest Advertisements for Books

Love this stuff… Enjoy…


Advertisements are all around us. As I am writing this post, waiting in an airport lobby, I can only escape them if I close my eyes and cover my ears. Marketing and advertising are practices dating back to medieval times and we encounter them even in the world of books. While rare, surviving book advertisements are fascinating because they highlight what salesmen thought potential buyers deemed important about their products. Advertisements form, in an unusual way, a unique keyhole view into the hearts and minds of readers that lived a thousand years ago. Fascinatingly, surviving book advertisements come in very recognisable – modern – formats: some are window displays, others are spam in books, and yet others are flyers posted in public places.

Window displays

The Hague, Royal Library, 76 D 45 (advertisement sheet, c. 1450) Fig. 1 – The Hague, Royal Library, 76 D 45 (advertisement sheet, c. 1450) – Source

While still rare, the most common surviving book advertisement from medieval times is the so-called…

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The best of… – Вибране

If you only read English, please click here for my mainly English posts.

Для всіх інших, тобто для тих, хто читає по-українськи, ось підбірка українських постів цього блогу. (Теж можна читати за тегами – тут їх досить розгалужена система.)

Про медитацію:

Медитація в умовах війни:медитація-в-умовах-війни/
Медитація на роботі або lunchtime meditation – 1:медитація-на-роботі-або-lunchtime-meditation-1/
Nayana або ж по-нашому Нейна про практику медитації:або-ж-по-нашому-нейна-про-практику-мед/
Ранньо-ранкова медитація – 1:ранньо-ранкова-медитація-1/
Ранньо-ранкова медитація – 2:ранньо-ранкова-медитація-2/

Про Індію:

Санкоч – про мертві, і живі (і ненароджені) формальності:санкоч-про-мертві-і-живі-і-ненароджен/
Про суперництво, комплекс ґуру, і серце проти ритуалу:про-суперництво-комплекс-ґуру-і-серце/
Маля мараті шікаіца aге:маля-мараті-шікаіца-aге/
Як я долала інтелігента в собі:як-я-долала-інтелігента-в-собі/
Поле битви і той, хто з нього втікає:поле-битви-і-той-хто-з-нього-втікає/
Вайтарна – земля мертвих:вайтарна-земля-мертвих/

(решта про Індію тут:про-індію/)

І про інші “мої” місця:

Мій Ванкувер:мій-ванкувер/
Про “ельфів”, або “people like you”.
Ванкувер – 2 чи ліцей – 5.про-ельфів-або-people-like-you-ванкувер-2-чи-ліцей/
Стара Австралія і маорійський новий рік:стара-австралія-і-маорійський-новий-р/
Моя Швейцарія:моя-швейцарія/
Про гори – Кайлаш:про-гори-кайлаш/

В категорії “Було колись” – всякі різні спогади:

Пів життя. Віртуально-реальне.пів-життя-віртуально-реальне/
Про Маріуполь і втоплене відро (продовження родинних оповідок):про-маріуполь-і-втоплене-відро-продов/
Уроки історії – день радянського фашиста:уроки-історії-день-радянського-фашис/
Полонина, вона ж Пожижевська.полонина-вона-ж-пожижевська/
Мої 25 – під знаком Майдану:мої-25-під-знаком-майдану/
Про виховання, Фауста і ручку Паркер:про-виховання-фауста-і-ручку-паркер/

І окремо – серія спогадів-рефлексій про Львівський фіз-мат ліцей:

Фіз-мат ліцей, з поглибленим вивченням англійської і фізкультури – частина 1.фіз-мат-ліцей-з-поглибленим-вивченням/
Фіз-мат ліцей – 2:фіз-мат-ліцей-2/
Фіз-мат ліцей – 3, про Царя, тобто про фізкультуру:фіз-мат-ліцей-3-про-царя-тобто-про-фізку/
Фіз-мат ліцей – 4, деталі:фіз-мат-ліцей-4-деталі/

Культурне-light (література-кіно-краса-історія):

Король Мацюсь Перший – 1:король-мацюсь-перший-1/
Пророк Халіля Джібрана:пророк-халіля-джібрана/
Драбина до неба – про майянське письмо:драбина-до-неба-про-майянське-письмо/
William Blake:
Австро-угорський вибір: дітей в школу, або сідай в тюрму!австро-угорський-вибір-дітей-в-школу-а/
Марія Антуанетта, гідність і етикет:марія-антуанетта-гідність-і-етикет/
Кіно Rang De Basanti.кіно/
“Whale Rider”, Niki Caro, New Zealand/Germany, 2003
то все-таки Весна? (галерейне):то-все-таки-весна/

І окремо писанкарське:

Екзотичні птахи і писанки…екзотичні-птахи-і-писанки/
Екзотичні птахи і писанки – 2:екзотичні-птахи-і-писанки-2/
Екзотичні птахи і писанки – 3 (травлення покроково):екзотичні-птахи-і-писанки-3-травлення/


Про Стуса, Андруховича, і вірш, або “Як понічна вишня, тужавіє світ”.про-стуса-андруховича-і-вірш-або-як-по/
Про Гайдеґера, стародавніх греків і китайців, і сучасних японців:про-гайдеґера-стародавніх-греків-і-ки/
Як читати Мерло-Понті, рецепти від Сема.як-читати-мерло-понті-рецепти-від-сема-5/